Thu, 31 Jan 2008 05:10:20 GMT

I realize I only write in this when I am really ridiculously bored. like really. So thats me right now.

Tue, 21 Aug 2007 18:18:19 GMT

uh...im sitting in hayden library. Im pretty much updating because this class break is ridiculous and i have nothing to do. I will eat soon. that will waste time.

Fri, 23 Mar 2007 22:19:03 GMT

i can't believe how long its been since i've updated my journal. I guess it's just because...well actually i don't know. The only reason i'm sitting here today is because i feel like ranting and quite frankly, i don't think my friends want to hear about it. or michael. or my family. or really, i don't even want to hear about it. I can't really talk about anything though. As people say, misery loves company, and i think that's why i like talking to people about my problems. But, I am far from miserable. for the past...uh i dunno maybe like month or so...i've been feeling...i guess lost is the best word for it. it's hard to explain really. I mean, i'm so sick of all this high school drama. I just want to get away from all these people complaining about everything. Not even like, stuff that matters. Yes, i can be guilty of this too, but not on the same scale as others. I'm so glad to be peacing out. Unfortunately, i know i'm not leaving it all behind. and i don't mean like, "damn bitches, everyone thats going to school with me sucks!" no haha. I mean like, i know that i'm going to stay in touch with most, if not all of my friends, plus i know ill meet more people. there are so many other things that are bugging me. I can't talk about them though. I can't let everyone know all of whats on my mind. Not that anyone is gunna read this...but hey, ya never know.
What i can say is that, though i dont exactly like being in the center of attention all the time (sometimes, yes, but doesn't everyone?) i do not like being ignored. At all. and i HATE jumping through hoops just to get people to notice me...especially when they are supposed to notice me. this prolly sounds really weird. Some people are setting up hoops for me to jump to, but what bothers me even more than jumping through set up hoops and people not caring is having to make my own. Do everything i can think of to get people to take notice.....and then they don't haha.
im not crazy i promise.
other than that...my life is actually going really well. no one in my family has gotten in a fight in a long time. My grades are better. it may not seem like it with the above rant but im actually really happy. thats just a rant, thats mostly what livejournals are for. hehe

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